No-Contact November
Track 4 of Boundary Era
[ Lyrics ]
No contact, still in contact with me. No contact, still in contact with me. Phone on silent, charger by the door, used to jump at your name — now I don’t anymore. You sent three dots like a sermon in the air, I left you on read like a prayer I don’t care. Used to cancel plans just to hear your voice, now I dance alone — got a different kind of noise. My own laughter, my own pace, my own beat, don’t need your validation to feel complete. I used to shrink to fit your light, now I glow without asking why. You thought it was lonely — I call it free, this silence? It’s the sweetest company. No contact, still in contact with me, relearning the parts you tried to freeze. No contact, still in contact with me, I found my rhythm in your absence, G. No contact — but I’m full, fully seen, still in contact with me. Went to coffee, sat with just my thoughts, ordered what I like — no, I didn’t ask what you would’ve bought. Ran into your friend, she said you seem low, I smiled like a secret only my soul would know. Used to track your moods like a weather report, now I check my joy — and it’s perfectly supported. Wrote a song in my head while I stirred my tea, first time in years it was all about me. You called it cold, I call it clear, no more fog, no more fear. You don’t get a say in how I grow, I’m not yours — I’m mine, I suppose. No contact, still in contact with me, relearning the parts you tried to freeze. No contact, still in contact with me, I found my rhythm in your absence, G. No contact — but I’m full, fully seen, still in contact with me. I don’t miss you — I miss who I was when I bent myself into soft cause. But that girl’s gone — she outgrown the fight, now peace is loud and the nights feel right. No contact… No contact, still in contact with me, I’m the voice I hear when the world’s too loud, G. No contact, still in contact with me, I’m the love I waited my whole life to touch. No contact — but I’m known, I’m believed, still in contact with me. No contact… Still in contact.