Private Terminal Tears

[ Lyrics ]

Private terminal tears hit harder in silence.

Private terminal tears… yeah, you don’t hear violence.

Third call unanswered, I let it ring,
sat in the lounge like I meant to wait for something.
Champagne on ice, but it lost its sting,
watched the tarmac like it held the answers running.
They serve me caviar, I just need air,
face in my hands, trying not to flash back.
You said forever, then left me nowhere—
in a gold-lit room with a cracked heart.

No cameras, no crowd, no social disguise,
just me and the ghost of your voice on read.
I don’t curse your name—I just close my eyes,
and let the ache land where the silence feeds.

Private terminal tears hit harder in silence,
no echo, no stage, just the fight in my chest.
No perfume to hide it, no flash to disguise it,
I bled out a truth I kept buried in rest.

Boarding pass wrinkled in my palm,
flight’s delayed and so’s my healing.
All these miles, I’m still not calm,
still feel your “maybe” like a ceiling.
Checked my reflection—tired and thin,
makeup’s flawless, soul’s a mess.
I don’t beg for a call, I don’t let it in—
except in moments like this.

No paparazzi, no filter, no lens,
just me and the weight I’ve been carrying alone.
I don’t need your apology, don’t need your defense—
just wanna feel like my grief has a home.

Private terminal tears hit harder in silence,
no echo, no stage, just the fight in my chest.
No perfume to hide it, no flash to disguise it,
I bled out a truth I kept buried in rest.

I don’t cry in the club, I don’t break in the lights,
don’t scream at the sky when the world gets loud.
But here, in the hush, where the shadows feel right—
I let you go in the cloud.

Private terminal tears hit harder in silence,
no echo, no stage, just the truth in my chest.
No perfume to hide it, no flash to disguise it,
I loved you too hard, then let it all rest.

Yeah… private tears.

Silence wins.