Call It Even
Track 29 of Mirror Season
[ Lyrics ]
No debts, no tears, no regrets. No debts, no tears, no regrets. Left your jacket where you dropped it, didn’t fold a thing, erased your name from the fridge, kept the coffee machine. Saw him at the party, your best friend in slow motion, smiled like I meant it, then took him for a ride like ocean. You looked across the room like you had the right to know — I just turned up the music, let the silence answer low. I don’t hate you, I don’t miss your door, I’m not waiting for a call anymore. You had your season, I had mine too — now I’m living in a different truth. Call it even, call it even, no more guilt, no ghost you left in. Call it even, yeah, call it even, I got peace and you got the story I lived in. He talks in your cadence, laughs just like you used to, but he holds me like he’s chosen, not just something to confuse. I don’t owe you loyalty, not a thought, not a prayer, I was yours in secret — now I’m someone they declare. You whisper through the group chat like you’re checking on my soul — I’m already past the damage, already made myself whole. I don’t curse your name when the lights go dim, I don’t trace our old steps, don’t believe in ‘if’. What we had was real, but it wasn’t eternal — I loved you like a season. He loves me like the weather. You wanted me broken, hoped I’d never move on. But the way I stayed quiet? Just meant I was gone. Long before I touched him, I was free in my skin. You kept score like a victim — I just let the whole thing win. Call it even, call it even, no more fire, no reason to pretendin’. Call it even, yeah, call it even, I found love where you said I’d be left thin. Call it even — even — Call it even, call it even, I’m not yours, but I’m not sorry. No debts, no tears, no regrets. Even.